REAL ADDICTION

Entry for January 13, 2007
Real Addition...

I’m a junkie. I’m addicted to the most dangerous, mind-boggling, potent passion known to mankind.
It can be as common as the air we breathe and as elusive as the end of a good dream.
I’ve bought it, stolen it, made it (faux and real) found it, won it, shared it willingly and unwittingly, lost it and sometimes, I threw it away.
It doesn’t matter where I go. I can’t get away from it. Its hold on me is so strong that I dream about it while I’m asleep. By now some of you are wondering what it could be, and some of you are very familiar with it. Perhaps we share a common dilemma and if we do, you know it’s LOVE that I speak of.
I can’t help it. I’m not addicted TO it, but addicted to FALLING IN it. I’m hooked on the adrenaline, the heart-stopping rush of it. I love the way I let go and FAAAAALLL regardless of the consequences. I can just let it go. Free fall for it all, at any cost.
I’m always looking for that next high. I’m always hoping that next high is higher than the last high so I can fall that much deeper. Do you feel me?

© 2007 Almenia Colter-Hussey
Saturday January 13, 2007 - 11:42pm